Carefree

I wish I lived on a cloud,
And the breeze would take,
me anywhere..
I could do whatever
I wanted to
skies would be fair
Stress would be thin as air
And I wouldn't have
a single care
I could open a book to take a look
and stick my yarn
in the hook

I'd be sooo freee...
Be soooo carefree......

just average

i'm not best not worst
or last or first
always in the middle
since my very birth
one to get the Bs
no valedictorian for me
some As came my way
but i'm just okay
a jack of all trades
a master of none
i tell it's not so fun
can't seem to find my niche
nothing under the sun
if i were on top chef
i wouldn't be number one
am just average at best
not noticeable from the rest
not skinny nor fat
i'm just not all that

your anything

i'll give up my values,
act like i have no clue,
compromise who i am,
push lower my bar,
not reach for the stars,
again feel all guilty,
just please marry me.
i'll cook and clean,
let you be mean,
go ahead push me round,
i'll just look down.
let me be with you,
make me black and blue,
please give me that ring.
i'll be your anything.

I am only rubber

You are only as happy as you say you are,
Cause who am I but someone afar,
If there is a hint of despair,
Then it's unhappiness in the air.
If you say he's the mr. right,
There is no reason to fight,
I'm not in the thick of it,
So I'll just watch and sit..

I am only rubber you are the glue
whatever you say bounces off of me
and comes right back to you ...

flies belong on manure

fly buzzing round your ear,
calling you honey calling you dear,
he wants to always be near,
his garlic breath makes you tear

flies belong on manure,
flies belong in the sewer,
they don't belong near you
they dont' belong with you.

loved to death

locked up like you are in prison,
no man's best friend to hand u a key,
alone and sad in utter misery,
anything that defines u, defines u no more,
peek out the window, but can't open the door,
what made you once smile, now lives only in memories

Narrow

You are of the opinion
That I am narrow
Just because I believe,
And I am of the opinion
That you are narrow
Cause you cannot see,
To have opinions,
One has to narrow down,
Their point of view,
So if I am narrow,
narrow is also you...

Butterface

What does it mean to be called a butterface? It doesn't mean you have smooth skin...

Something I've learned from the guys at work:

Butterface

Interesting...:F

Little

You know the way it felt when the girl in P.E. threw softballs at you because you weren't very good at the sport and you cried about it. Or when the girls at school looked you from head to toe and scoffed at your Pony tennis shoes. I forgot how that felt until I tried to return something to the mall. I had the receipt, the product was unused, the place was a big department store but the girl talked to me as if I were a kid. The receipt wouldn't scan. I tried to be polite yet persistent but she refused to help me further and told me I had to return it to the store I purchased it from. I felt small, so tiny, so defeated.

And I was just upset and shocked. :)

Oh well to another ...Macy's I go... ;) Snobby south coast..:P----

refund please! :D

i wish i could return everything that i own,
i could start anew and feel so brand new,
collect all the money that i've spent
and spend it over and over again.. :D

All of you...

It always feels
like if you make
a mistake,
That it
invalidates,
all you do
all you've done
Say you make mistake
one and two
feels like they will
think less of you
Wouldn't you like
some praise,
or a nice
big fat sweet
raise,
or a pat on the back,
or a little slack,
When you put so
much in to
all you do
all you've done
Then it just takes
more from you

only one

only one [Mar. 9th, 2004|09:38 am]
i'm only one girl
in your world
of rollercoasters and twirls,
i'm only one thing,
in your list of
likings...
i'm only one speck
in the spectrum of goals
i'm only one,
who loves you so...

etched in stone

there is a root cause,
a problem to solve,
a pattern etched in stone,
a way to gripe and moan,
it's part of your norm.
it takes you by storm,
you are not at the helm,
you let it overwhelm ...

Again

the dust settles down,
white turns to brown,

water turns hard,
everything again falls apart

leaves fall to ground,
the world turns round,

we end at the start,
everything again falls apart


Inspired by the weekly routine of cleaning.. :)

out of focus

out of focus and bored
my mind is elsewhere
almost like i didn't care
unfortunately i do
but i'm just not here

Infinite

Like a broken record,
a sad love song on loop,
a big hamburger with a
side of large fries to boot

A cycle that won't break
how much more will it take?
will this trial ever end,
want to just stop not begin

Your mind is thoughful but thoughtless of you...

Sleepless nights,
A pain in the side,
Wake up to stop
This rollercoaster ride.

Your mind is thoughtful but thoughtless of you...

Ruin your day,
Don't want to fail,
Now you are just,
An empty shell.


Your mind is thoughtful but thoughtless of you...

Drunk on drowsiness
Others think less
Not much to do
Just catch twenty two

Your mind is thoughtful but thoughtless of you...

Inside

I want to hide,
Don't know how to feel,
Just want to live ... inside,
Don't want to confide,
Don't want to speak
Don't want to think
Just want to sink ... inside.

More Beautiful

More Beautiful
Red, white, and blue
More beautiful
Than I ever knew
Took for granted
What it is to be free
Free from fear
Free from tears
Thrown Into the unknown
But I am not alone

Written Sept/2001

crossing the line

family -
bonded by blood
not necessarily love
obligated to stay
different in many ways
easier to leave
but she'd rather bleed

friends -
bonded by years
through many tears
growing out of the same
it's life that's changed
easier to leave
she may indeed

crossing the same lines
but getting doubly penalized
expectations run too high
a false move and it's good bye

written jan, 2002

My Purpose in Life

The worse thing in life is the anticipation of death,
The inevitable end that will take us all
Sadness will consume everyone that is left
Known others of others who have taken the fall
How insignficant are all things on this earth,
When breathing has so much bearing and worth?
Found my purpose here and no others will be above,
To spend all my time and effort to simply just love....

Written August 05

my eyes

my eyes are like damn,
that are broke-broken,
they overflow,
take control
drown me in pity,
drown me in sorrow
my eyes are like a fall,
pour over the mountain walls,
they overflow,
take control
drown me in pity,
drown me in sorrow

Written [Aug. 14th, 200504:28 pm]

Older but NOT

the lines around your eyes.
don't make you any wiser.
you are the same person
as you were before...
disorganized, impulsive, full of whys
and sad
you say that you are different
that you have changed
but your actions
show a whole lot more...
the lines around your eyes.
don't make you any wiser.
you are the same person
as you were before...

Life is simplier than you know

You don't know why you feel the way you do.
But you always end up black and blue.
You do know it might be in your head,
And you see green when it's really red,
The world sees in black and white,
You'll see rainbows even at night,
Life doesn't have to be such a ride,
Just sit back and let it subside...
Wear on some shades, let it fade

Life is simplier than you know